i need a bit of help, i’m in a really bad situation currently
a lot of people already unfollowed me for my previous post but i guess i’ll elaborate more now that i am not incessantly crying…
i lost my health insurance again which means 2 things; 1. i am unable to see my therapist anymore and 2. i am unable to pay for the $1,000 medication i take every month. every time i sign up for insurance they give me like 3 months of it and take it away. i have already gone through the arduous process 3 times now my mother is sick and tired of driving me place to place, getting print outs of the nonexistent money in my bank account, she told me this last time was the last she will go through the process for insurance. i have no license and even if i tried to get it i’d have no money for a car. my mother owes a lot of money to the IRS and i take commissions whenever i am able to to help alleviate the money she owes and to help pay any bills like my phone and such. getting a car is out of the question. i asked my mother if she could ask if anything was available where she works and she told me they aren’t hiring for a long time. i don’t have much time. i can’t sit here and twiddle my thumbs and hope everything works out for the best. i need to take action. i am unable to get a job where i live currently because of the aforementioned lack of a license not to mention i live basically in the middle of nowhere so even walking is out of the question.
i asked for donations before and many people responded and helped me out through that rough time. i feel like such a worthless piece of shit person asking for your help again but i don’t know who to turn to help me, except you guys. my boyfriend doesn’t want me living with him because he doesn’t think i’m ready to make that kind of commitment. it saddens me but he is probably right.
i’m taking donations once more. i’m so, so sorry everyone. i want to make it up to everyone who has donated in the past but i have nothing to give you right now except my word that you will be compensated with /something/ when i’m able to. this donation money will be used to perhaps go elsewhere and find a reliable job for a bit so i can give my mother money and make my own to actually do something with my life.
if you’ve donated before don’t feel like you need to do it again. i’m really sorry that i even made a post like this again. i’m not worthy of being helped. i’m sorry that this post is whiny and stupid. it’s because i am whiny and stupid. i’m so mentally messed up that i put myself in this situation i am sure of it. i asked multiple people if they could let me stay with them and i’d pay but the responses from everyone have been no. understandable. i have no where to go. i can stay with my mother a little bit longer but i need to get out of here. i need to get a job somewhere. i need to make money. i need to start being an adult. i need to take responsibility. i just need a little bit of help if possible. please. please help me if you can.
my paypal is killer.zodiac[at]gmail.com if you can spare anything i will be eternally grateful. please include your name if possible or screen name so i can track you down when i’m able to compensate all of you. if you can’t spare anything or have donated in the past, a signal boost would mean the world to me right now.
i’m sorry that i’ve failed so much. i am trying to fix it as best as i can. at the end of the day, i’m still pathetic. please don’t feel sorry for me. that’s not what i want out of this situation. i don’t deserve pity, i am well aware of this.